Does it seem like time floats by? One quietly drifts along watching the scenery. Slowly one picks up speed until….
like riding a bike downhill ~ zoom! A year, or perhaps 18, are viewed in real-time no more. One catches glimpses of the past out of the corner of ones mind.
This weekend, my sister’s son, Zach, graduated from high school.
I’m not sure how it transpired, but one minute Zach was all about dinosaurs and trucks, building “big towers of power” and Winnie the Pooh, the next minute he’s dipping his toe into unchartered waters ~ college, career and beyond. Did I encounter a wrinkle in time?
When I queried, “Ellis, how can this be? I was 26 when Zach was born and I’m still 26….” the only response I received was a soft snore.
Next year, it’s Molly’s turn to wear the cap and gown, and, in the space of a very few years, Zach and Molly’s paternal cousins will have their time on the podium.
I see my sister with her incredible children and I am awed. My heart swells with pride. How difficult is it to have children, raise them, keep them and let them go? I’ll never know, for which I am profoundly grateful, but I am even more thankful to have had the privilege of being part of such a family, to have lived vicariously through my sister’s life. Jenny has always inspired me…always. Her children infect me with hope, and their father, Steve, exemplifies what a father, at his best, can be.
As I retreat to my simple, quiet home, I reflect on the wonder and meaning of it ALL. I don’t suppose I’ll ever find out what it ALL means. I may never discover why time, such a regular, regulated, drumbeat is, in actuality, an elastic band. Do the seconds pass like heartbeats? Steady and impassive when one is sedate and unconcerned, but speeding up to fever pitch when one is running as fast as one can simply to live in one moment? Perhaps. It’s not really important for me to understand time, why it ebbs and flows.
It’s only important for me to spend that time wisely and well.
Congratulations to you, Zach, and to you, Jenny, Molly and Steve!